BreakingWay

It’s been over a month since I wrote my last post, that’s too much! I have good and bad news. I’ll start with good. I saw the baby’s father, many times, and I am thrilled by the fact that he’s ok now. He has finally accepted things the way they are. He said he thought about us every single day and he loves us both. He felt his baby boy kicking and I must say I will never forget the look on his face. He was smiling like a child for ten minutes after. He is so nice to me now, we get along better than ever before. I guess we got to know each other a bit more now. I am glad for that. Well, I won’t go into details. The bad news is that he moved to another city today because of his work. It’s pretty far away, and neither of us wanted him to go but he has no choice. We will still see each other, of course, but not as nearly as often. I’m afraid he won’t even be here when I give birth, and that means so much to me. I cried surprisingly much when I said goodbye to him, silly me. It’s not like he’s going forever. Hormones are killing me, what can I do! But I could see it was hard for him too, he didn’t want to leave.

Enough about that! My sister went to work on a cruiser two days ago and she’ll work there for 6-8 months, so she’s not gonna be there either. It makes me so sad! I wish many things were different but that’s life, I have to deal with everything the best way I can. Eventually it will all be alright!

So much for now. I hope I’ll write soon again.